New Years 2014!

It is so crazy! I can’t believe it has been over 2 weeks since New Year Eve!

I went over to my friends house early, I was basically the first one there. Played with my hair, put on makeup and did my nails. I had a lot of fun! The girls were in one room at on point doing makeup and talking while the guys were playing video games and chilling out.

 

Playing Video Games

 

We had potato soup (red potatoes, delicious) and it was enjoyable.  There was lots of food and drinks.

Eventually we all sat down and played a card game for about an hour or so. When things were winding down, my boyfriend brought out his guitar. I am so glad he did too. I rarely hear him play anymore. It was hilarious he started playing the Friends theme song and everyone, everyone in the group was singing. It was marvelous.

 

We didn’t watch the ball drop 😦

Still though. I got to relax, eat, and drink with friends on New Years. This was my second New Years with this group of friends and I have to say that I really enjoyed it.

She is pretending to be taller than me. lol She isn’t.

Soon after midnight my boyfriend and I headed home as he had to work in the morning.

On the way home I had come to the realization that this time last year I was basically hanging out with the same group of friends. And my friendship had only grown. Although it feels like I have been friends with them forever, I have only really hung out with them the past few years, and actively seeing them the past year or so.

Even though the year has been a very long year, I am very glad I have had friends like you.  Thanks for a great time in 2013, can’t wait to spend time with you in 2014.

Pictures below are from New Years 2013

 

How was your New Years? What did you do?

A First for the New Year

I know many find this strange, but for the first time as long as I can remember I feel hope. I feel hope for the New Year.

It is really a strange feeling, hope. A nice feeling too. I’m surprised that I feel this way. Living with depression and anxiety I rarely feel hope. But for some strange reason I have a lot of hope for 2014. I am not hopeful for any particular reason, just hopeful. It is a good feeling.

What are you hoping to accomplish this year? Are you hoping for something special to happen this year? Let me know in the comments below. 

New Years Resolutions

Every year people around the world begin coming up with New Year resolutions. We all know them, I will exercise more, be more organized, try to eat healthy, stick to a budget, etc.

I will try to exercise more, I will try to be more organized, and I want to be able to do a better job at sticking to a budget. But my New Years Resolution is going to be a little different.

My New Year’s resolution is that I want to work on being less critical of myself. For those that may not know I suffer from depression and anxiety.  As a result I am usually hyper critical of myself.

I am not talking about being normal critical like of you should have done that or I should be doing homework. No, I am talking about a constant barrage of critics telling me I am not good enough, I suck at homework, I need to be perfect, why can’t I be perfect, I can’t make a mistake, why do I procrastinate so much, I shouldn’t let my depression be an excuse, what’s wrong with you, why can’t you do anything right, why can’t you chill out, why can’t you be normal. What is wrong with you.

I live with this on a daily basis, I have lived with this on a daily basis since I was 12 years old. I have been dealing with this for over 10 years.

As a result it can be difficult to function on a daily basis. Whether it comes to classes, hanging out with friends, or just writing on this blog. So this year my goal is to do my best to not be as hyper critical of myself.

I really want to learn to accept the fact that I am not perfect. That it is okay to make mistakes. It won’t be easy I have been living with this going on for over 10 years.

My goal for the end of this New Year, for 2014…. is that I want to improve and not be as self critical of myself. It won’t be easy I know that, but it would be a start. I also want to try to seek some help, some professional help just to assist me get through the process. That will not be easy also, but we shall see how it goes.

So that is my New Years Resolution, what are your resolution(s) for 2014? I would love to hear them.