My Worst Valentine’s Day Ever (AKA A Sign From God Himself telling me this Relationship was a bad idea)

I’m going back to the time when I was in high school. I was in a relationship that should never have been. My parents didn’t like him (for good reason), my best friend was always concerned for me, and he was emotionally abusive (calling me names: fat, saying that had love handles, that I was gaining weight, that I was smart, but not that smart, saying that he loved me and only I understood him, getting upset when I was around other guys, etc.) and somewhat sexually abusive to me and pressuring me to do some things I didn’t want to, making me feel guilty or a bad girlfriend.


Don’t worry, there’s nothing triggering or super scary in this story (thankfully). I’m just setting it up, so you can understand why this was the worst valentine’s day ever for me.

The day before we had another huge argument/fight at school after school. I don’t even know what about anymore, I think it may have been over another girl or something. Or how he thought she was hot and that I don’t fit the definition of “hot.” I felt hurt/ offended by what he said (rightly so). We made up though and he said he was looking forward to spending Valentine’s Day with me and would get me something special.

A couple things to keep in mind throughout this whole post:

  • this was my first time in a relationship for Valentine’s Day
  • he had a job and I didn’t
  • he didn’t really have any expenses
  • I have been dating this guy for about 5 months, although I have known him longer, who manipulates me emotionally, abuses me emotionally and sexually.

Even after this fight I had bought for him a card and a chocolate reese’s heart, yes I still remember to this day and I will tell you why later. You are probably thinking this in regards to me getting him something and still staying with him after he said I wasn’t hot and all the other bad shit he has said about me to my face.

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And you are right, it was messed up. My head wasn’t in the right place. I know that.

Now, this all occurred February 13.

Next Day Valentine’s Day Around 3-4 in the morning.

Be warned, the story gets gross from here on out. You have been warned.

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My Final Thoughts on The Fine Bros (Part III)

If you got this far after reading Part 1 & Part 2, congrats!

Thank you for your patience.

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Now onto my actual thoughts on this instead of just sharing all the facts as they are.

I can understand wanting to protect ones format/ideas, the thing is though, reaction videos have been around a long time now. They just became really popular on youtube and the fine bros just happened to be the ones to make it big.

They sad and stupid thing is they said they like how youtube runs and is different from traditional corporate ways, and yet make comparisons to America’s Got Talent.

Then to top that all of what they proposed was basically a pyramid scheme. The stated that they would share logos, branding items, and send out adive through emails to those that sign up to be a part The Fine Bros business. From what I understood, they won’t give you equipment, buy the software for you,etc.  Now one you would have had the videos uploaded the Fine Bros would take a larger share of the profits you made on your channel. The whole process works like Marykay or Avon business practice works. The Person higher up on the pyramid profits from the person on the lower part of the pyramid works.


Instead of starting your own reaction channel, creating your logos, and buying the equipment you would have to buy yourself anyway (even if you worked with fine bros) and keeping all the money for yourself, someone else would give you logos, random “free advice” in return for a bigger chunk of your profits.

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Don’t worry you read that right. It’s why people are irritated.

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Things Aren’t Fine, Fine Bros Part II

Man, the brain fog is strong with me right now, but I’m gonna push through, want to share knowledge with everyone. There won’t be as many videos in this one, and this should be shorter.


Now when I last left off in Part 1 of this, I mentioned how Fine Bros stoled an idea from another youtuber.

More specifically Elders Reacts.

There was a channel called stillcosmo, which no longer exists that uploaded a video called Senior Reacts.

Now thanks to webarchives the internet is able to learn this bit of information

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I want you to take note of the date.

April 3, 2012. 

Keep that in mind.

Now let’s look at this video

They announced a new series! Seniors React??

Wait a minute, what’s the date. This sounds familar.

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Well, well, well. Would you look at that.

May 1, 2012!

A month later after another channel uploads this, they “come up” with this great idea.


Here is more info on the timeline of that fiasco here.

Now, on top of this more drama has emerged.

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Things Aren’t Fine, Fine Bros

Today we are talking about the internet, more specifically youtube. Before I share my actual opinion, I am going to try to present as much information on this subject as possible in this one post for you to see. Since trying to find all this information in one place is like herding cats.

After that is all done, than I will share my opinion on this matter. Grab your popcorn, get something to drink ,and get comfortable.

All right, let us begin!


If you don’t know who The Fine Bros are, they created a bunch of react video series on youtube. Kids react, Elders react, youtubers react, teens react,etc. It has always been pretty popular.

Well, not anymore.

This past weekend they uploaded a video to youtube (which they have since taken off their channel). This guy below does a reaction video to it and has the whole video in this video as a result. He is well spoken and really cool to listen to btw,  one of the few good things to come out of this fiasco.

As a result of this announcement, many people were outraged and expressed there feelings on youtube, some were pretty calm like this guy. Others used satire.

Some youtubers were just downright angry. This next two videos uses curses and flips the bird, so be warned.

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Technical Difficulties

If you have tried emailing and or contacting me within the past 6-8 months, please note that I have been battling Lyme Disease, epilepsy diagnose, chronic fatigue and a whole boatload of issues you can follow at my lyme blog.

It does not help that my computer has been unresponsive and is in a coma right now. I am using the family computer to do things. As a result, I lost a lot of my passwords before I could transfer them to a flashdrive.

I am still trying to recover and trying to remember many passwords. So in the meantime please be patient.

I can’t tell you how anxiety inducing this is.

Book Review: The Beast Within

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I grew up loving Beauty and the Beast. I have read many different versions of the tale. I have read modern adaptations and I have read different cultural adaptations. I will be talking about the book in length, so there will be spoilers.

Having Read Fairest of All, and having enjoyed it a lot, I had high hopes for The Beast Within. I was disappointed. At times it felt like I was reading bad fanfiction(and I like fanfiction, there is a lot of good fanfiction out there). Page 22 is a good example of what I am talking about.

There was a character by the name of Tulip Morningstar, that made my eyes roll. Tulip Morningstar? That was the best name the author could come up with? She was supposed to be the name for one of the love interests that the Beast meets before he meets Belle. Really? It sounded so stupid, I couldn’t take it seriously.

Circe being the witch/enchantress, a pig farmer’s daughter, and having three sisters (making me think of Macbeth) was another Wtf moment.

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Not Sure how Long I Will Be Away

I haven’t written here in a while and frankly I’m not sure when I will return. Writing takes a lot out of me, editing, revising, comprehension,etc. I do have another blog to follow my lyme journey if you are interested, I just can’t keep up with this one. My body wears out so easily, no matter how much I try. I don’t really write long posts like a used on this new blog. Just a couple of sentences usually or just reblogs of what others posted.

You will know when I return, there will be a big hoorah and lots of posts to accompany it. I don’t know how long that will be, but till than, you can follow inthevalleyoflyme to follow me in my journey to fight lyme.

Stay Strong, Explore the World, Learn, and Remember ticks are assholes.