This word brings more fear and dread than anything else.
Yes, I have a fear of failure. I know why I have a fear of failure. I know the root of it, I understand it. Thanks to many hours of crying, self-reflection, and seeing a therapist (Yes, I have one).
The only problem is trying to fix it.
I can tell you that for the longest time, I didn’t realize that I had a fear of failure. I thought I was just driven and an overly concerned individual when it comes to the idea of success.
Aren’t we all?
Over the past few months I have come to realize that my fear of failure and the fear of messing up is starting to inhibit my life. I have trouble turning in assignments in on time. I have trouble studying without the fear of not knowing the material and feeling like a failure just because I don’t know the material.
Trust me, I know how ridiculous this sounds.
I understand that from a logical point of view that this is silly. I know logically that just because I mess up, make mistakes; it does not define me as a person.
Trying telling that emotional part of me though. Not as easy for it to get through.
I am not sure how this process will be. I am only just beginning. I do know that I can’t keep living like this, it is affecting everything I am doing: my schooling, my work, my dreams, my goals, etc.
One shouldn’t have to live in fear of failure.
I really hope that I will be able to overcome this fear and tell it talk to the hand for I am to busy to be afraid of it. It won’t be easy, it may take a long time. I am already making progress by starting on facing it.
Do you have a fear of failure? What are you afraid of failing at the most? Let me know in the comments below!